Today is my day 5. I started this thing 1 day before my period started. What was I thinking lol?

Yesterday on day 4 I will admit I cheated. When I am on my period I crave chocolate like you can not believe...or some of you might. Well yesterday was V day damnit! I don't believe in the holiday because of the commercialism..but everyone else does!

All around me everyone had something sweet and yummy. My company even brought in trays of cookies and these brownies I love. At one point I stood in front of that brownie tray and literally talked to it out loud I swear lol. At lunch I went to meet my DH and took one of those brownies with me. I wrapped it into a big paper towel and promptly handed it to him when I saw him. This is for you. I wanted it, but I will not eat it. He said it was pretty dang good! lol Now some of you might feel pissed that he ate this when I couldn't. I didn't! I don't want him to feel guilty about eating what he wants just because I made this choice of getting my life back in track. Oh, he has a metabolism of Paris H...soo yea. lol Although, since we have been together..our "happiness" lol has put a few pounds on him too. So he agrees this is great way for him to feel better too. I have decided to just cook meals for us instead of two different ones. He keeps telling me how proud of me he is lol...it helps make this easier!

Oh..so you want to know how I cheated...right right! You thought, maybe it was in the end the brownie that was my undoing, or some nice warm toast with butter smothered on it..or...or...ok..I will stop the verbal torture.
I went to the store to purchase some 5dpt appropriate food since I will be needing it this week for day 6+...there were so many things I wanted to bring home and munch up.

I brought home a bag of mixed chocolate candy in the end. I had one...one pecan delite. One russel stover's sugar free pecan delight.



LOL, ok I don't feel guilty. I feel proud because prior to finding this wonderful sight and plan..I would have came home..made chocolate chip cookies eat a few...but that would have been after I ate that brownie...some chips and Pho earlier in the day.

So call me a proud cheater if you will....but today I am down to 165!!! WOOT!!

Thank you so much Kaye for this...you have helped me after 5 days get back on the track I haven't been able to after 4 years!!

Success is more a compromise than anything else. Yes, you did give in to the chocolate, but you did it in MODERATION. By eating just one candy, you satisfied that craving and didn't set yourself up to graze on other things because you wanted the chocolate so badly. I am forever saying that the key is in moderation. Your story is the proof of that fact!

LOL - You had me going! I was sure you had gone back and planted your face in the plate of brownies!

Good job!

I keep SF Chocolate pudding the house - for those moments - LOL

Glad that you are back today! That's the most important thing :-)

Big hugs,

Nancy

I think it sounds like you did marvelous sweets! Keep it going, you deserve this.

Oh BTW I cannot handle suggestive food topics at all any more. All I can think of now is diving into a bowl of Pho, lol. Darn hormones!

hugs!

What is Pho?

Pho is this amazing Vietnamese soup that I know a postop should not eat. It is heaven. Always makes me feel good during the crappy time of the month because it is lean, thin strips of beef that are put into this fabulous broth that has cilantro and onions and it takes like a day to cook or something. Doesn't sound so bad right? Well at the bottom sits these rice noodles that are so good. They don't puff up like spaghetti noodles so you can get more down. Yes...it is bad! But so comforting.

I was thinking about my new "post op" life and how I could somehow keep that in my life. I think maybe I will order it without noodles and mainly enjoy the beef with the smallest amount of the broth.

MMMMMMMMMmmmmmm that does sound delish!!

Well written, Jess! I enjoyed your "cheating" post very much. And congrats on the victory!