Hi Everyone...

Day 5 has arrived...and it amazes me that in such a small window of time that one can gain control of something that was lost. I feel better...I feel full at the right times again...I feel hungry...I feel enpowered...I feel like maybe I can do it!


We all have a serious addiction to food..I know I love food..I love tasting it...I love cooking it....I love smelling it....so my biggest challenge is how to change the way I view food...I don't think that I can stop loving it...but...I can learn to view it differently...eat to live instead of live to eat...that is the one challenge that I know that I will struggle with the rest of my life. I thought quitting smoking was hard (9 yrs ago) to this day..I will still once in a while crave a cigarette....but quitting smoking has nothing on eating healthy. Quitting smoking was a piece of cake...no wait..bad metaphor to use...quitting smoking was easy as pie...no wait....quitting
smoking was a walk in the park (yeaa thats it)..

So for day 4, I had the following food and drink:

Breakfast
2 Eggs (boiled and lightly dusted with salt)
2 pieces of bacon (patted dry)
Cup of Joe - not at the same time as my eggs

Lunch

1 cup of Cheesy Salmon loaf (From the kitchen recipes) Yummo!

Snack

1 egg

Dinner

5 turkey meatballs and a little broth from the Mexcian Chicken Meatball Soup (From the kitchen recipes too)


64oz water
32oz sugar free fruit punch drink (tropicana)

I really only got hungry one time....and ate the egg..

And so begins today...

Great Smiley! Hope day 5 is just as godd for you!
Enjoy that feeling of freedom! It keeps getting better!

Yup, did it! I feel great. I don't have time to post food & my dreaded meeting, will do so tomorrow night. Take care all. I'm so proud of us!

I don't know why I couldn't edit the above post--I thought it was an hour later than it really is, so I do have time to post.

9A tea
10A protein shake w/my vitamins & meds
water, water
12:30 1 hard boiled egg & 1 slice lo fat amer ch. not best choice for day 5, but I had no alternative.
water, water.
4:00 cubed beef (cooked w/olives, but I'll eat a couple of those tomorrow) I ate for 15 minutes & stopped. I feel o.k. I still feel like I could eat more; it will be really good for me to stick to the 15 min. rule. I could have had a shake cause dinner time's soon, but I really wanted to eat the day 5 food.

will have the rest of my water

dinner's @ 5:30, I'll probably hold mine over till I'm hungry--
STEAK--Hurray. I'm looking forward to that.

night will be more water and sf jello or popsicles.

I don't know how much better my pouch is working--I still feel i could eat more after I finish my meal, but I know then I'd get over-full & in pain. But I DON'T crave carbs!

I'll try to keep to the 4 oz portions of protein. I bought strawberries for tomorrow --fage yogurt w/a few strawberries & 1T flax seed meal is a good breakfast & helps me go to the bathroom. I was really constipated this week & had to take sennacot and mirilax. I know one of the meds I take contributes to that.

My other day 6 meals will be chicken or beef w/tomato or green beans.

Oh yeah, I saw my boss today; he was basically feeling me out--when I told him that if the executive committee tries to fire me for cause (there is NO cause) without honoring my contract to the end of May, I said, "I'd hate for it to come to ligitation" He said "you can't afford to litigate." I said, "I don't care if I break even financially--I WILL litigate--my reputation's at stake." I think I shocked him. The 5dpt must have empowered me.

Sorry this is so long; I'm just so happy I've just about finished day 5; especially during a difficult week. I'm also very grateful to all of you, my new neighbors and friends.

hugs,